Then I have my sweet sweet Kaden. I was always told, "if your first is a preemie you're most likely going to deliver prematurely with any pregnancy afterwards." Terrified me. But I knew there was another little one waiting to join our family. But I knew we might not get as lucky to have another miracle baby survive an early delivery. After much prayer we went ahead and got pregnant again. Sure enough, my body tried to get that baby out at about 24 weeks. Even earlier than with Corbin. We caught the problem luckily and I went in for an emergency surgery to keep our precious baby a cookin for a little longer. Thank you modern medicine! The doctors and Aaron and I were just hoping to make it till at least 32 weeks. But after 4 weeks on hospital bed rest and 6 weeks at home kaden successfully stayed inside the oven till a full 38 weeks!!! Another miracle. He's perfect. It's so exciting to wAtch him take all those milestones in accordance to what is "normal" at every month.
Love my boys. So so grateful. And I feel so blessed. I love them with all my heart. I love how a friend of mine said on her blog "there are no gray areas in [her] heart." She either loves with a passion o doesn't really care at all. And her heart is soo full right now. I couldn't word it better myself. Aaron and I always wanted 4-5 children, and even having two, even though it can be hard sometimes, we would still do it, but after going through everything with this second pregnancy our thoughts have changed. Three...maaaaaybe. Somewhere way down the road. But I don't know if I can risk another premature high risk pregnancy. What if my body can't handle it as well? There are so many worries. We just have to have faith and when the time comes to consider a third, to pray pray pray. And see if we're at a stage in our life where we can afford all the things that come with keeping that little one in as long as possible. Time will tell.