It's a boy!
(I'll be 18 weeks Wednesday. This is the most recent photo I have.)
*nausea has pretty much gone sianara babay! I'm still taking a pill every morning, but that's just because it's habit now. I'm going to start weening off and see what happens. (crossing my fingers!)
*TIRED!!! Oh my goodness! I do not remember being this tired with Corbin!
*back pain. I wish so badly that I could pop my back.
*nothing looks good on my syndrome. I just feel fat.
*my "little" ladies aren't so little anymore. They're getting too big for my liking to tell ya the truth. I wish they'd stop.
-apples, milk, cheese, yogurt, wheat bread with butter, blueberries, strawberries, chocolate, lemonade...
I'm really loving Cohen. (Middle name is chosen, but still a secret)
So to the point of this post.
I really don't think about it too much. I've always just put it into my head that
this baby WILL come at full term.
When I picture my labor and after I always picture water breaks, excitement, phone call to my mom to come watch Corbin, rush to the hospital, give birth, be able to hold my baby right after, and best of all-
take baby home with us when we leave the hospital
But then today I had a moment of "wow. It is a real possiblility that this baby could come early."
Like Thanksgiving early.
I can't even begin to explain how it feels to have your baby in the hospital for THREE months
before you can take him home.
(This isn't meant for a pity party for me...I just want to remember these moments.)
I want so badly to just bring home our baby.
Love him back to sleep in the middle of the night.
Have a newborn in our home.
There is so much worry involved going to the NICU everyday.
If your baby is going to make it...
So to my sweet little boy,
Please stay with me until at least February.
I promise you can meet Santa next Christmas.
I promise I will love you even if your a chunky monkey and not a string bean like your brother. ;)
You need to stay with me and do your growing so you can come home and love on your big brother.
We love you so much!